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Sunday, December 13, 2020

This feels different.

You know how they say, "when you know, you know.”?

And you're always perplexed by that answer, 'cos in all honesty, it explains nothing. zilch. nada.

But I think I get it now.

This feels...stable. It's not that exciting adrenaline high that lasts for a hot minute. It's this calming, non-volatile bliss that continues on.

I thought that the adrenaline hit was the best part, but this...this feels effortless. Not the kind of excitement that hits you so high that you're bound to get knocked down seconds later. But the kind of reassuring sentiment that you know this one'll last. This feels...constant. Not high, just enough, but constant. Do you know how good it feels to constantly be in this state of bliss? Just constant calming happiness. I'll take this over any high that only lasts as fast as it comes any day. No matter how high is the rush.

It feels so good to finally be in a state where I'm not confused anymore. No second guessing, no trying to decipher everything. Just pure, reassuring happiness.