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Sunday, June 18, 2017

Midnight post

It's 1AM now and I was going to blog about this resto I went to a couple days ago, but I'm too sleepy already. But but butt, at the same time I want my latest post to be anything but the emo-ish gibberish crap one I did on my last post lol (don't want to delete it either because I treat this blog as a diary of sort and it's good to keep memory of not just the good days, but also the emo moments haha).

I initially planned to blog about the resto on the day of (oh silly little naive me), but of course that didn't happen. Next day, still didn't happen. The next day (17th), also didn't happen. So I'm gonna make a pact to myself that I'mma blog about it TODAY (18th - after I've slept lah). Anything to bury the embarassing emo-existencial-quarter-life-doubt-anything-crisis rant -___-".

Okay, filler post done.

Monday, June 5, 2017

the chase

You know what I miss?


What I've learned from this occurrence is that I've forgotten how wonderful the chase is. It gives you tingly feeling and butterfly in your stomach. 

It's been a long while since the last time I felt that hopeful, thrilling sentiment. It made me giddy. And for some unknown reason, it motivates me to be more productive.

Most importantly, It made me realize how stunted our growth had been. We just...stopped. We've stopped trying. We don't put in any effort anymore. It shouldn't be this way, right? That shit supposed to happen AT LEAST after like, maybe, 5-10 years of marriage. Not now. We're still in our early 20s for fuck sake. I guess we're just too comfortable that we unconsciously decided to stop getting better for each other, for ourselves. We don't challenge ourselves anymore.

I'm not saying full-acceptance is a bad thing, it just makes a relationship awfully dull when we don't even give a fuck to be better anymore. I need to be challenged.

It's not helping that my friends had been breaking up left and right. Their relationships are long-term too. Made me wonder. Should I allow myself a fresh start?

This episode made me realize that maybe I'm not ready to commit (not that we're gonna get engaged soon or anything, that's probably like 5 or more years down the road), that I still need some times for myself. And this is going to sound cliche and cringy as fuck, but maybe I need to discover and get to know myself?

I've been in this relationship since I was 17. I basically have been with him through my prime teenage-discovery-years. Early 20s too. Who I am today is largely influenced by the fact that I grew up from teenager to young adult with his presence in my life in a significant way. I don't know who I am just by myself as a young adult, without him. I could be better, or worse for all I know, but I at least want a chance to get to know the "me" without him as my crutch.

This is either an epiphany moment or a confirmation that I'm having a quarter-life crisis.

This is kinda ironic too, given that I wrote something about the chase that is polar opposite to this years ago in this blog. But that was a different time. We haven't given up on making an effort at that time, we were still getting better and better each day, we still gave a fuck.

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Craps I Bought in Japan - 2017 Omiyage

Okay, I know the title says craps, but NONE OF THESE ARE CRAPPY!!!

In fact, I'm regretting not getting multiples for some of these things. They're good stuffs, so maybe this post can help you to shop (more) in Japan next time lol.

I'm usually OCD and very anal about posting in correct sequence, but I'ma blog about this year's Japan trip first before continuing my 2015 travel log since they're (the 2017, not 2015) still fresh in my memory and I can recount the details well. 

Kicking it off with this haul post. I AM gonna do a haul video for some of these items for my channels later on, so the measly amount of people who do read my blog get a preview first.

There are 40+ pictures, so let's get to it!

Start with my favorite thing from Japan, THE FOOD!!

It's the thing that I miss the most-est-est-est. Foods there are...just...AMAZING. Sam also says it's the thing that he constantly miss. Like in a single day, there would be a couple times where he'll tell me that he want to eat Japanese food again -__-".

I totally took his Japan-virginity and made him a Japan-slut in this trip lol. Welcome to the club buddy!
Okay, this is kinda ironic given my previous sentences, but of the two above I only like the Honey Butter Almond which I got from Kuala Lumpur airport haha. And it's Korean brand, not Japanese.

The other one is a dried sweet potato snack from MUJI and it tastes meh. Better just go ahead and boil some actual sweet potato.
These are perfect for souvenir! Mad cheap (only around 100yen, so you can buy more souvenir varieties) and quite yummy. My mom actually bought tons of this to give away, but I begged for one bag because it honestly tastes quite good.
These Two!!! GO TRY!!!

The first one is a langue-de-cat (is that how you spell it? googled, it's de-chat) cookies with white choco in the middle. The cookies are nice. I like langue-de-chat that are thin and melt in your mouth sort.

You know how some langue-de-chat cookies are a bit thicker and "kriuk-kriuk" just like any regular sugar cookies (the one from Languly is like this *bleah*)? Yea, don't like those kind. Taste just like regular sugar cookies, so why bother. Bottomline, this one is not like that and is actually good.

I bought one at Haneda's lawson and ate it on-the-spot, but because I really like it, I bought another two (one has already been given to my brother) at the Donki there. Yes, there is a Donki in Haneda!! I love how you can still buy cheap discounted stuffs at the airport.

The second one is this thing that I also bought from Haneda's lawson. I assumed it's a snack from the famous BAKE baked cheese tart shop (still don't know if this is true), so I bought a couple boxes.

I expected it to be like biscuits with solid cheese center because I tried another similar snack from PABLO collab and it was just like mini puff pastry with solid chocolate filling (good, but I expected it to have a gooey melty filling).

But to my utter surprise, when I popped this unassuming little rectangular thing, IT MELTED OFF IN MY MOUTH!!! Like really melted.

It has a STRONG BUTTERY TASTE (I feel like the middle part is just a slice of butter lol) and SWEET CHEESY MELTY OUTER. SUPER NICE!!

The taste can be a bit too overwhelming if you eat like 5 cubes in a row, but I feel like that's a good thing? Helps with portion control lol.

You can also store them in the fridge to mellow the flavor, but then it's not as melty. I still prefer melty room-temp.

Omg i just wrote 9 paragraph, albeit short ones, to describe cookies wtf. What is this blog.
More almond snacks! I love almond. This one is a go-to-souvenir from Tateyama Kurobe Alpen route, sold at the Murodo station point, which is the highest station in world (or is it in Japan? eh, I can't be bothered to fact-check).

It's basically milk-covered almond, the orange one is the special kinako edition. Both are pretty nice, but somehow it was tastier when I tried them at the station?
More donki haul, this one from don quixote in Kamata-Ota. Instant Go! Go! Curry (regular & cheese), instant cream stew mix, and ochazuke, also instant lol.
Instant royal milk tea (one of my favorite vending-machine drink), random pack of fruit tea, and actual gourmet tea leaves from Lupicia!! Petite Amie smells heavenly. Anyway, it's cheaper to buy the tea in packet like this. If you buy with the tin can, the price can go up quite a bit.
Chocolates bar from 100% Chocolate Cafe by Meiji. They sell lots of chocolate varieties, even ones like chili flavor and pepper flavor!
Stopped by Sugi Honey shop in Miyajima.
Honey karinto.
LOVE THIS!! It's a like a deep fried dough I guess. Crunchy and airy with this distinct (also crunchy) honey coating. Super nice. I tried to eat it bit by bit because I really wanna savor it for as long as possible, but alas, it's all gone now.
Flavored Honey!! You guys should try the Yuzu one if you love citrusy taste.
Mini colorful konpeito (I spent a good ten minutes searching the name on google lol) because I've always been curious of the flavor whenever I saw them on manga.

Also, random mini cured meat. Only 40yen I think from Donki, impulse near-cashier-trap buy. They also have mini cheese to pair it with!! Forgot to get those tho T_T
Instant garlic bread paste :D So convenient. And pickled sakura. You can use the pickled sakura to make cakes/sweets, tea, sakura gohan, jam, ice cream, coffee, milk shakes, and so on and so on and guarantee will make your food 10x prettier!

I've always consider Japan to be the MOTHERLAND OF NAIL ART! So, of course gotta pick up some nail stuff ^w^
Tiny gel pot set! This is the cheapest Japanese gel I can find (Japanese gels are CRAZY expensive y'all) and even then, the quality is not bad.
In an unrelated note, I'll be selling Japanese gels (better quality than this one) soon, so stay tuned ;)
Trying out nail files from Japanese brand. My favorite (for my own natural nails) is still the Germaniküre glass nail file, but these rougher ones are great for extension and false nails.
Again, bought the cheapest Top and Base gel I can find lol (laoniang got no money to spend on expensive gel atm okay), but they were still quite a bit pricier than the China-made one you can find online.

It's okay tho', because these top and base are DABOMBDIGGITY. I've only used those cheap made-in-china-for-wholesale top and base gel before this, and this cheapest Japanese top & base gel blew those out of the water.

With the china one, chipping only took a week (or less than). With the Japanese one, even after 3 weeks, there's no chipping in sight (but the gel on a couple nails did popped off lol, but I think that's partly because of noob application. 2 weeks if I'm using china gel colors underneath.

P.s. not saying that all China gels are bad, because the premium ones are good, but just the ones that costs like $1.5-$2

P.s.s Oh, and the one in a pot is clear gel, which cost like $20 fml. Thank God for tourist budget. I'm waaay to stingy to spend that much in a day-to-day situation.
More Japanese gel!! Haven't tried them both yet.
Gel brushes! I.LOVE.♥︎
Really got difference than the usual brushes I used!! Now I finally understand what Robin Moses meant when she said, "it's hard to find a good liner brush."

I had always thought that my liner brush had been doing a great job. Boy was I wrong. Okay, to be fair, my liner did make beautiful crisp line (after I customize the bristles or maybe it's just my skill *ahem*), but this Japanese brush is SO MUCH BETTER!! It's easier to maneuver and creates a more define line. Can make the line thinner too!
Cuticle oil. With gold flakes inside ♥︎w♥︎ Sooo gimmicky and pretty please!! It's also available in other gimmicky form like flowers, pearls, rhinestone, etc.

P.s. used the chibi gel to create the simple nail art in this photo.
Nail clipper 'coz they say Japanese nail clipper is damn good.
Nail polish thinner (mine's almost out), gel primer, and gel remover.
Okay, these ones are from KLIA, so technically not a part of this haul post, but whatever, I love Essence so much I feel like I have to include it here.

Didn't get a lot of beauty products this time around. Gonna Konmari methoded the hell out of my make-up stash. I don't have a that much to begin with, but the amount now is already too much for me leh since I only wear make-up to events and when filming youtube videos.

So look out for pre-loved sale! (Some are still brand new and never been opened!)
Bought K-Palette tattoo pencil liner because it was on sale for 50% off or so O_o!! Super smudge-proof. Also stocking up on my fav eyelashes glue, which also happens to be on 50% off sale 😆 SALE is probably one of my most favorite english vocab lolol #forevercheapskate
Have been curious to try the Kose Lip Magic. It's a lipstick topper that can turn ANY lipstick into a transfer-proof lippie!!
Drugstore lipstick with topnotch beautiful packaging ♥︎♥︎♥︎ Yes, I'm a sucker for cute and gimmicky packaging. I've even written a blog post about this sickness.
The forever-hyped Daiso puff sponge cleaner. They also came out with brush cleaner, so decided to give that a try too.

Crazy sharp and super cheap!! A good quality face blade like this would cost a LOT in Indonesia, if I can find one, that is. The ones that I usually buy in the drugstore here is so inferior to this Japanese drugstore ones that they just seem like a kid's play knife. *smug scoff*
Erm, tmi, but my favorite panties *ahem* undergarments *ahem* are from UNIQLO! The ultra seamless one with high side. So granny, I know, but it's super duper comfortable okay!! Plus no visible pantie line no matter how tight your shorts/skirt is. LOVE ♥︎
And a 4-pack of black t-shirts, just because they're on sale. But actually, I practically live in these supima cotton t-shirt. Use them almost every single time I go to the gym too. So comfy.

Daiso stuffs.

Awesome oil solidifier (great for disposing used oil), garlic/ginger/anything fine grater, pump bottle (for nail polish remover and alcohol), ant poison, IG-worthy wooden spoon, and random bandana. Turns out, my short hair looks horrible with bandana *sigh*. Or maybe it's just my face lol.
Hammie gachapon!! This one is like those cup no fuchiko, but in hammie form. None of them similar to #TataTitiTututheHammies tho.
Awesome cover up for when you have blisters. Tried it and it's really super effective. It's like putting on a topcoat on a blister! Bye bandages.
Cute Daiso dining utensils. The stuffs in plates/ramekin aisles is the most worth it things you can buy in Daiso IMO. Totally regretting not getting more T_T
Lo and behold, the famous Lu Lu Lun Sheet Mask. Cheap cheap.
I'm not loyal to any particular face wash atm, so decided to try out the forever-hyped Perfect Whip.

As for the Kanebo's Evita, again, got suckered into its gimmicky packaging. IT DISPENSES ROSE FOAM OKAY, HOW CUTE IS THAT??!! *Justifying impulse purchase like a champ*

The other one is the jelly soap from LUSH. Great for travelling! Compact and no mess.
I've never tried a boxed hair dye before, so why not start with Japanese brand one, right? Afterall, I hear a lot of great things about Japanese boxed hair dye.

Well, as it turns out, they're all damn expensive! Around ¥2500!!  To be fair, I've never purchased this kind of thing before, so I don't really know what's the average price lol could be ¥2500 is average.

Anyway I picked the cheapest one, which is from Beauteen for around ¥1000. We'll how it'll turn out. I'm still gathering the courage to color my hair on my own.
Stocking up on my holygrail sunscreen. The other one is heat pack, because it was still quite cold there.
Hair stuffs I want to try for my poor bleached and colored hair.
Heated eye mask for chillaxing and toxin-pulling thing that I had mistaken for salonpas lol.

And that wraps up this post!

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

emo rambling

Have you ever had suicidal thought? Because I'm getting it all the time now.

It's crazy how 20+ years of happy-go-lucky can turn into emo-ish shit in the matter of 2 years.

I guess my slow descent to negative-nancy started after being friends with them. The negative pessimistic shit just rubbed off on me. I thought if I cut ties I'll be okay and back to my normal self, but nope. Still a debby downer here. I wish I can get over this long-winded funk just like that. It's sucking the life out of me.

For the first time ever in my life, I have no interest in doing anything. NONE. LIKE NONE AT ALL. NOTHING. NADA. ZILCH.

Even just to write this blogpost to pour out my feelings took me days to get the willingness to. it's crazy.

Man, I need therapy. Or something. Intervention of some sort.

I really can't see the point in life now. And it's driving me crazy. I know I'm blessed abudantly, but I can't get this shitty feeling off my chest.

I can get distracted from it, but at the end of the day, it's still there.

I'm hoping there's some kind of rainbow light unicorn shit at the end of this dark, long, unnecessary emo-ish crap tunnel.

Aaaarghhh. I wanna say I feel like I hit rock-bottom, but life-sufficiency wise, it's not like I don't have food or anything like that. It's just that, life-quality wise, it's severely lacking.

Like days just went by just like that. I haven't had a meaningful day for more than A YEAR. It's just been day after day after day with nothing to really remember of anything significant. It's like for the past year or so I've just been dragging my ass and living like a zombie, just going through the motion.

Is this some sort of early midlife crisis or what? quarter-life crisis?

It's not helping that I've been getting headache these past few days. And my eyes freaking hurt if I stare at the monitor for too long.

Gosh, I feel like I can't function properly.

I'm hoping that someday I'll look back to this draft and be like "what the hell is this gibberish shit I typed back then? I'm completely happy and content and live a meaningful, full live."

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

BIODERMA Promotion!!!

This baby probably doesn't need any introduction, I'm sure y'all know Bioderma. It was hyped to death by beauty gurus across the countries years ago when the micellar water trend started. it's THE OG of #MicellarWater.

Actually, it wasn't even a trend. It was just Bioderma doing its own thing and fast forward a couple years later, tons of other brands are competing to come up with their own micellar water.

Still, out of the micellar water that I've tried, Bioderma is the one the that I trust the most when it comes to cleansing my skin without washing/rinsing afterward (totally not recommended by the way -to not wash your face after removing your make-up-, but you know, sometimes laziness wins. Fine, a lot of times).

Throughout the years I've used up at least 7 bottles of 'em (two 250ml sensibio, two 100ml sensibio, two hugeass 500ml sensibio, and one hugeass 500ml blue cap one. LOL I still remember which and how many bottles I've used up). Yup, it's that reliable.

The only thing I'm not a fan of is the price lol 😂 #forevercheapskate. SO THE GREAT NEWS IS, SOCIOLLA is having a promotion for Bioderma Sensibio (the pink cap)!!!

🎵 Sensibio H2O 100ml for Rp 99,000.00
🎵 Sensibio H2O 250ml + 100ml bundle for Rp 231,000.00. Plus free pouch!
🎵 Sensibio H2O 500ml for  Rp 272,800.00

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Saturday, April 1, 2017

FIERCE Look - International Woman's Day

Happy Belated International Woman's Day! Here's a bold & fierce look for it ^_^
This is my entry for NIVEA's International Woman's Day competition ^_^
Nivea products that I used in this video can be purchased from the link above!

FTC Disclaimer: This is not a sponsored blogpost. I am not paid to make this video, however I am obligated to make this blogpost as a part of Sociolla campaign. Nivea products were sent to me by Sociolla for product awareness purposes.

Monday, February 27, 2017

JAPAN Summer Trip DAY 3 Pt.3 | Kaiseki Dinner & SHIOK Onsen + Takeshima Hotel

This is the last part of Day 3! Yay, almost halfway through this travel log. Previous logs: 

From Tenryū-ji temple, we went to Aichi perfecture to stay at a Ryokan and have dinner there.
The ryokan we're staying at.
We were having a traditional Japanese course dinner (kaiseki ryori) that night and it was one of the highlight from this tour's menu, other than the crab course we had in Tokyo later on.
All the dishes. I believe there is an order in which one you eat first, but we didn't know. One of the tour member even fried the sashimi on the hot stone because he doesn't take raw food lol such a waste of a perfectly good and fresh seafood
I honestly don't really remember anything particular other than that it was decent, so maybe nothing spectacular for the kaiseki dinner here. 

The only thing that left an impression was the umeshu (plum sake), which was incredibly delicious. Even my little brother who's not a fan of alcohol loves it. He even gulped down another member's umeshu and got tipsy after. His alcohol tolerance is a joke wtf 😂
My mom's birthday celebration part 2.

We went to our room afterward and the rooms are ryokan-style!! Loves it! You guys should definitely try Ryokan at least once when you go to Japan.
Really giving me Doraemon tea right here. Sleeping on the futon was sooo sooo comfortable too. If I could get futon here in Indonesia, I would.
The bathroom. Spacious for Japan's hotel standard
It even has separate room for the bathtub.
And another separate room for the awesomesauce japanese toilet.
Each room is equipped with yukata for us to wear around the vicinity.
They even provided little baggie to put our stuff in for when we go to onsen! Wearing yukata is awesome btw, so lightweight and airy.
Random gif of my random family.

Went to try onsen after the photo sess. You're not supposed to take photo inside onsen (for obvious reason lol tits and butts everywhere you turn 😳), but there was no one when I was there, so here's a sneak peek of the onsen in this ryokan.
Bins to put your belonging. Honestly, had it not been in Japan, I probably wouldn't feel safe leaving my stuffs without key like this. Although I believe they do warn us about putting our valuables there.
Vanity area. They provided some amenities like comb, q-tips, body lotion, face cream, even exfoliating stuff. Awesome.
Hallway leading to the hot spring.
We're supposed to clean ourselves before dipping into the onsen.
Again, they provide everything you need: shampoo, conditioner, body wash, even face wash. I've tried three different onsen places and all of them provide top-notch amenities. Being a tacky gaijin, this amazes me to no end.
Indoor onsen. There is an outdoor part too, but there were some people there, so I didn't take a pic.

The whole onsen experience felt SO SHIOK and relaxing! Another DIE DIE MUST TRY when you go to Japan. I slept like a baby that night. 

On second thought, why does it called "sleeping like a baby" when you have a good night sleep? Babies wake up sporadically throughout the night, crying here and there. Weird phrase. 
Family photo outside the hotel after.
Oh, they also gave us welcome snack on the table in our room.
Sponge cake with dried fruit inside. Meh, but much appreciated.
Okay, finishing off this post with a pic of my mom posing all zen and having tea like a lady. See you on the next post!